i'm stucked and trapped!
i cant seem to be able to remove them from my hands!

alrite,
i jus finished 2 books by Cecelia Ahern.
they are PS, I Love You and Where Rainbows End chronologically.

aww.
tis is going to be a boring entry becos i'm all into philosophy again.

now i'm wondering,
wad make things happen?
ourselves? or fate?
so when things dun happen, who do we blame?
printed on the cover page of the latter is this line :"Sometimes fate just can't stop meddling..."
absolutely. true.
i dunno how much one hab to go thru to grasp that line.
i guess i understood a little and at this point of time i alreadi HATE the way fate works.
(i know some of u are agreeing wif mi in silence!)

tis is realli hard fer mi.
reading is my hobby.
but i cant seem to be able to share my views wif anyone after reading and i'm suffocating!
(is tis even the rite hobbie fer me?!)
i can either start making frens who read the same genre of books tat i read(romance, mostly)
or start forcing my frens to read.
wad a choice!

gosh.
now i'm tinking,
can there realli be someone out there who can be my life partner?
i find myself a chore too!

to be realli candid wif all of u,
after completing the last book,
i realised i hab no best fren.
nono, i'm not getting sensitive and pathetic again.
i would feel insulted if u even tink i'm such a sickening freak.

but are best frens defined by the amt of time they spent together?
or by how much they tok?
or by how well they know each other?
or by how much laughters they shared together?
or it's jus a feeling tat goes:"hey! tis person can be my best fren!"
or maybe it's jus where they place each other in their hearts?
shd there onli be ONE best fren or i can hab plenty of them?

wad i'm definitely sure is tat,
i will nv make a male(cos i'm straight!) my best fren ever again.
becos it's either we get together in the end,
or we become total strangers(jus friends if we hab better luck).
when love gets into the picture,
it scares "friendship" out of the picture entirely.
there will always be tis scar or barrier.
it's an irreversible change and it's permanent.

anyway,
i'm getting my karma now.
it hab always been Me ignoring frens who care fer mi.
finally, fer the 1st time,
i hab someone whom i care ignoring mi.
(huo gai!)