conclusion: i dun believe in love at first sight anymore.

and i'm refering to all kind of love, not onli the romantic one.
love can onli grow day by day.
i finally understand this.

and because of this, it explains why...

i started liking econs(althou the paper is DAMN DIFFICULT!).
i started to love my sch - sch of biological sciences.(esp. student resource room A).
i started to love being a student and truely enjoy having exams(onli then will my learning increase exponentially).

i know i'm sounding veri mad over here.

i hab been mugging in sch till 10 plus at nite b4 i make my way home.
i like ntu when it's at nite. maybe i jus like places that are quiet, yet safe.
or maybe it's because i feel sufficiently far away from her.

i hate to stay at home recently again, yea, the usual politics again.
and i'm always the victim.
how good my day is going to be depends absolutely on her mood.
and her mood follows a periodic behaviour.

u know the taste of 委屈？
try eating ur dinner and silently weaping uncontrollably and u will know how it taste.
silent tears are so bitter.
to be able to tear at the thought of her,
can u imagine how much hurt she hab incurred on mi?
can u imagine how much i hate myself to be hating her?
and i cant even put up a fight.
u win.

after such a long fight, i'm still struggling with u.
it's time i grow up and overcome this problem permanently.

P.S. becos of u, i conclude that love doesn't always grow positively.



once injured, forever wound.
the scar will always be there and it hurts if u press against it.
and i seems to be pressing on it too frequently nowadays.
one can never be fine.