before i go to bed.
i jus wanna complain.

i deserve all the stress i am facing now.
i'm having exams and this is bad enough.
worst still, my student is also having exams.
it is starting on exactly the same day as me,
and i was onli informed TODAY.

once again, during my revision today, i seriously hoped that i was not majoring in bio.
u may disapprove of my lack of enthusiasm in my studies.
but i care more abt my own feelings more than wad u might be tinking of me.
i wont pretend that i am handling it well like i always used to.
i am still the same old girl that used to work so hard fer everything i have now.
but this time, it is for life and i dun see myself doing bio-related things for life.
this is not my dream course and i'm afraid i got myself a real bad choice.
dun fret thou. i'm not gonna gib it up now.
i am not allowed to. my fees are on loan.
unless that i striked it rich now, and could pay them off.
i would tolerate, get my ass thru this 4 years and pass wif a reasonably good grade.
if i try harder.

and maybe,
maybe i will try hard enough to earn that money and get my ass out of it.
maybe.

i'm not kidding. but i have no actual plans yet.