"u always tink alot lehx."

ya. true.
i hab better learn to stop tinking so much.
life shd be easy, simple and straight-forward.
the brain shd be use to generate ways to make ppl ard us happy.
everyone shd be smiling happily.

i cant take it.
it's veri tiring to be the apple in the eye of others.

better treatment den others,
special priviledges,
and all the other good things tat came bundled wif it is onli superficial.
wad is hiding beneath all these are expectation and reciprocation.

stop. stop. STOP.
stop showering mi wif too much care and love.
i cant handle all of them.
i realli dun deserve such things.

simple scenario:
someone kindly offered u a sweet.
u dun wan the sweet so u din take it.
someone was hurt.

wad i mean is tat i cant reciprocate all of the kindness showered on mi.

i rmb simin told mi tis.
"ppl give u things must accept. cos it's rude to reject their kind gestures."

but too much manners can kill.
it's slowly sucking my life...

and i will go to hell again.
fer i'm complaining when i'm so bless.
sinful..