I NEARLY DIE!!

the implications for not taking good care of myself and
i got the full-blown of it yest.

it's jus a little painful since it's the time of the month again.
but i din expect tat it will turn out SO UGLY.
(no, i din stained again. zzz.)

this minute i'm standing, the next minute i cant see wad's in front of mi.
i was in the train, on my way to work.
i couldn't take it and i alighted at Newton.
so, so, so giddy tat everything around mi is spinning!!
AHHH!!
low blood glucose i guess.
i cant even see the seats in front of mi.

but right after i became concious again,
the MOST MOST MOST TERRIBLE THING HAPPENED.
PAIN!!
NEVER B4 hab it been so PAINFUL!!
i cant move. i jus bent down so hard.
one hand on my tummy, the other pulling my hair.
nearly pulled them out i tink. LOL!

cant go fer work in tis condition,
so i forced myself to get into the train back to woodlands.
i jus wanna go home. tat's the onli place tat i feel safe.
i went in, no seats. shits.
so i squat down in a corner. cant even sit on the floor cos it hurts more in that position.
i tink ppl ard mi were staring at mi.
but i cant care much. i was in PAIN.
so pain tat i was covered in sweat - cold sweat.
both my hands went NUMB, i cant feel anything at all.
and of cos, i was praying so damn hard.

i decided tat i cant take the pain anymore, i dun wanna faint in the train, and gave someone the opportunity to press the $5000 emergency button. LOL!
i must alight at khatib and take a cab home.
and khatib is the best cos taxi fare is not so ex. =X
i avoided the escalator.
cos i dun wanna faint and roll down it. (OUCH!)
毁容！!!

WORST OF ALL.
i bumped into this pair of mother and daughter who were unbelievably inhuman.
i was squatting so low in front of them while waiting fer the lift,
practically like 30 cm above the floor onli.
it was so OBVIOUS tat i'm NOT feeling well.
and they made mi press the lift button fer them.
AHH..
God bless that they will learn to be more helpful the next time.

when i finally struggled my way out of the station,
i realised i'm in too much pain to even stand and wave fer a taxi.
SHIT.
mind shut off. squatting at the side.
den i keep asking myself who can i call.
home? kor kor? casilin? ***? YJ?
and i called cas.
wow. THANKS BUDDY.
luckily u were at home! T-T
otherwise, i tink i will be in a hospital now.

"cas, 我很不舒服。i'm at khatib now. can u pls come and drive mi home. i'm dying."

she appeared like ten mins later.
actualli i wasn't in so much pain alreadi.
but i'm still veri happy she was there. phew.

in the car..

"wah kao. jus now got 2 母女, damn unhelpful! see mi in such pain still made mi press the lift button. KNN. they will hab 报应！"

and den she sent mi home.
i'm safe now. T-T
thanks cassie!

ahh.
dun scold mi.
i totaly FREAK OUT from yest experience too.
i jus keep telling myself tat i cant faint jus anywhere.
some monster will come and take mi away to dunno where.
den i will see God of Hell.
NO! freak! i haben do enough good things to go heaven!!
or some scary, chao disgusting man try to do CPR on mi.
AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! NNNNNOOOOOO!!
jus these made mi so strong yest to keep myself awake, even though i tot i could faint from the pain alreadi.

someone told mi b4 she was admitted to the hospital cos she lose too much blood during her period. i tot she was kidding and said that to skip work. =X
okie. i believe u now. wth. wad a price to pay.
OUCH.

no worries.
i jus nid to make sure i'm okie fer the next 2 days and the bleeding will cease.
*pls stop bleeding so much!*
and on my way to sch and den to work later,
i shall make sure i hab 2 packets of sweets wif mi to replenish the glucose in my body anytime.
maybe some panadol too.
or hang a card ard my neck writing my particulars, in case i realli faint off.
CHOY!

P.S. tis is the most PAINFUL experience fer mi thou not as painful when i hab those stitches on my back when i'm ard 5. so painful tat i cant go "OUCH!", i jus broke out in cold sweat. too scary. i can sound veri casual abt it now. but i realli was in so much pain yest, i wished i can die. *choy!*