5 mins b4 i got on the taxi, i tink the taxi uncle alreadi sensed how desperate i wanna leave tat place.
he looked at mi from his driver seat in the car.
i looked at him from the platform i was sitting down at.
he was a veri kind man.

at ~3.45am...

"Girl, ur area is veri quiet. later after u alighted, uncle will wait fer u to go upstairs."
"huh, no nid la. veri troublesome fer u."
"nono, it's okie. go. go. i'll wait"

and so, i ran upstairs after i alighted.(i dun wan to keep him waiting too long.)
dashed to my windows tat face the road,
and waved to him, who waved back.
thank u, uncle.
this little act of kindness totally warmt my heart.
esp becos i jus walked out on my friends.

my pocket burnt a big hole last nite.
my heart too.

it hurts because the people whom i tot will know mi, actualli dont.
maybe i shd jus spell it out,
i wont ever go ard provoking people.
and even if they provoke me, i will jus hold it down.
tat is the case , till i reach my limit.
so why blame it down on me?
tis is the one thing i cant keep it down,
i feel so 委屈.

it may be due to the heels.
but did anyone of u ask mi abt work?
or maybe it's my fault that i din tell.
(i was deciding to blog abt my sore legs or to send a piece of regards to my fren. obviously, i chose the latter.)
i had been running ard the restaurant fer the last 4 days.
i know u guys work too.
but we do different things when we work.

i know it when i did sth wrong and i will feel bad abt it.
but this time round, it may not be the best thing tat i did, but it's definitely not wrong.
i'm sorrie to jus turned my back, din even bade goodbye and stepped into the taxi.
but i know tat i couldn't smile anymore becos the tears are alreadi at the corner of my eyes.
so it's better that i leave.
those kind of disappointment i held last nite, i never had it for all these years of our friendship.

pls dun try to lecture me.
i tink i got enough last nite to last mi fer life.
yes, i'm egoistic or wadeva u say.
but i say i'm jus a friend, who needs a listening ear.
now, it's too late. i dun wanna tok to any of u abt tis anymore.

i'm still veri sorrie.
i walked out on u guys.
i did not reply any of ur sms-es. (except fer Val who smsed mi a second time.)
and fer being petty becos i still dun feel like toking to any of u.

i must say, i was looking forward to the gathering.
blame it on my innate repulsion to clubbing.

P.S. i looked like i stucked two ping pong balls onto my face.