a GP Fail.

i am a strong girl.
i must be strong.

fer the bad results i hab gotten.
i will onli blame myself.

i'm fine.
realli fine.

jus gib mi some time.
i will recover.
i hab my own plans.
dun worry.

"sorrie kor. i cannot go uni le. sorrie."
tis is realli the last thing i ever wanna say to my family.
the onli line tat makes my eyes red and i jus couldn't stop the tears.
sorrie mummie, sorrie kor kor, sorrie mei mei.
jie jie realli cannot do u all proud.
realli veri useless.
no money to study jiu suan le.
now the results cannot even qualify to study.
who will even spare a GP-fail grade obtainer another look?

daddy.
i hab disappointed u.
i am so ashamed of myself.
pls forgive ur dear daughter.

yes, of cos i can still go uni.
BUT I DUN HAB THE MONEY.
I DUN EVEN QUALIFY FER A SINGLE SCHOLARSHIP AT ALL.
becos i fail my GP.
i hab no say in any singapore university.
even so when i hab no money.
understand le mahx?

"WAH. ur english veri powerful!"
thank you pui pui.
i realli tink u sux as a form teacher,
as an elder,
as a human.
may ur tongue get cut zillion times in hell.
yea, u're going hell.
and i dun mind joining u there fer cursing u now.

i will not hide.
i will not run.
i will face all these myself.

becos i will be responsible fer my own acts.
and be responsible fer my own future.
all it takes is jus a few nights of tears,
and i'll be fine.

God.
i believe all these u arranged fer mi will onli be fer my own good.
i believe i will be able to see it one day.
i believe in You.