okie. i decided to be back.
=X
LOL!

if u tink tat i was jus being emo.
u are so damn wrong.
it is such a common feeling which i get all the time tat i see it as normal.
anyway,
althou i'm back blogging, it doesn't mean tat things are getting better.
things were actualli getting worst at home.
financially,
it's not realli tat bad, i can still buy mummy a decent mother's day gift.
i jus nid to restrict myself to purchase onli household items.
strictly no personal spending althou i spent quite an amt last nite wif angela.
she is my bestie and i onli got to see her once in the last 3 weeks.
she is worth spending money for.

things are worst becos i nid to keep hold of my recent even-more-fiery-than-usual temper.
i am holding it down, realli hard.
for the longest time,
i would always get VERI UPSET when MY THINGS got messed up by OTHER ppl.
i could mess them up myself, spoil them,
but at least i did it all by myself,
i cant have anyone to blame and hate for.
(do i share this trait wif anyone or i'm alone in this?!)

i'm realli against sharing things(non-living ones) tat are solely MINE.
but i learnt to jus close one eye and share them.
now, the least i can expect is for them to be taken good care of.
BUT THEY WERE NOT.

it's like,
i am walking on a narrow pathway.
u suddenly came into the picture.
i took one step back and let u pass.
yet, u were rude enough to push mi completely off the pathway.
tat's it, dude.
u did it.
u made mi real angry.

fer all those times, i flared up immediately.
now i'm learning to cope wif the anger when i found out my favourite things were all spoilt.
i am still keeping cool and onli blog abt it.

欣怡！你是很能忍的！

忍！

P.S. i feel so intimidated nowadays. even insects(i hate them!!) bullied mi. yest was cockroach(!!!!) on the tray of my food. (puke*) today was a brown beetle landing on my hair while i was walking home, and i shook it off violently with fright. it was onli after i reached home, i felt a stung on my arm. *JUMPED FROM THE SHOCK* and screamed for my mummy to get it off me. it was on my back the whole time after it left my hair. WTH.