low, low, super low.

HAIX...
i am so sad. T-T
so many things.

one.
abt my bbq.
since i invited my guests.
i tink it's onli right fer mi to cover the food cost.
know wad darric told mi?
i am like asking ppl to celebrate my bdae fer mi.
althou he did ask mi dun be too sad.
or take it too hard.
but i tink he seems right.
why din i told of tis?
all i tot of is to hab some fun b4 i suffer fer one and a half months wif books.
am i realli this thick?
T-T
am i realli wrong? tell mi, ppl. T-T

two.
chem paper 1 today.
the last paper.
the worst paper.

three.
reflecting on my recent habits.
i am studying so little.
i hab no drive.
i dunno wad's wrong.
i dunno how to make things better.
do u know?

four.
the closer u get.
the more worried i am.
i dunno why.
i am suppose to feel super sweet and stuffs.
but at the same time.
feeling so insecure.
like i am force to choose btw studies and u.
teach mi how to balance this out.
i am greedy.
i wan both.