i am flipping all those university booklets and brochures till they are going to be torn into million pieces.
LOL.

HI GUYS!
XINYI IS BACK.
MUAHAHAHA!
LOL!!
the cute xinyi!
the happy xinyi!
the funny xinyi!
the idiotic xinyi!
the noisy xinyi!
the diao-u-still-can-smile xinyi!
LOL!!
MUAHAHA!
WO HUI LAI LE!

aww.
so tiu lian.
i was actualli so weak fer a while.
but nvm.
most importantly,
I STOOD UP AGAIN.
*STRONG*

who cares sia.
wadeva shit.
i am going to apply.
those bu-ke-nen can go in de also apply see see.
my onli problem now is i cant find sth tat i'm super interested.

i am also flipping the scholarship book.
i know u wanna slap mi.
cos i fail gp and i still dare to flip these books.
BUT.
who says i dun stand a chance?
thanks ts.
u reminded mi tat nite.
they state excellent A level results.
so i can still try horx?
dun care.
i will jus bump myself into all the things tat i am eligible fer.

dun tink i'm brainless or dunno i dun qualify or sth.
but i jus believe GOD ONLY HELP THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES.
always rmb tis line.
*hints to someone* LOL!
i shall not gib up on any chances tat shone on mi.
it's fate i came across them.
so it's up to mi to do sth abt it.
rite?
okie.
in simple terms,
i'm jus gonna be THICK SKIN.
LOL!

carry on!
i'm not done!
story-telling time again!

Date: 5th March 2007
Venue: Yakinikutei Ao-Chan (my workplace)
Time: approx. 8 plus.

here it goes...
There was this uncommon group of Singaporean customers.
From past experience,
Singaporeans are really more difficult to handle than Japanese customers.
So my colleague got a bit piss off wif them.
and i decided to take over and do all the serving.
after going in fer a few times.
suddenly one of them spoke to mi.

Trudy: how long hab u been working here?
Mi: oh, ard 9 mths.
Trudy: oh. tat's quite long alreadi. so wad are u doing now? studying?
Mi: hmm, i jus received my A level results.
Trudy: i see, how did u fare?
Mi: haha. not veri well i supposed. cos i failed the most impt subject GP.
Trudy: aww! how come? wad abt other subjects?
Mi: hmm.. i got A A C.
*the entire group of them went :HUH?!"*
Trudy: huh?! den wad u planning to do? continure working here fer life ar?
Mi: huh? no la! but will try to source fer ways to go Uni.
*silence fer a few seconds.*
Trudy: Do u wanna work fer mi? i am working in a bank. come come, write mi ur hp no. i call u tml.

people.
i am not exactly tat suay.
i dunno.
the next day i went down fer an interview.
thank you cas fer accompanying me.
they are offering mi a six months contract.
gross salary of $1200/month.
after CPF dedcutions, maybe i get ard $960.
i am gonna work from 8.30 to 6 from monday to fri.
furthermore,
they allow mi to carry on working at nite.
i am considering.
they are asking mi to start on monday.
tat's great.
i can still go fer the interview on sat.
see how ba.
believe it a not, i do hab alot of plans jamming my brain now.
be happy fer mi.
=)


sometimes.
words are hanging at the corner of the mouth alreadi.
but i jus cant bring myself to say it.
i dunno wad's stopping mi.
but i am expecting sth more from u.
i know, unless miracles happen, u will nv do it.
time is running short.
i cannot promise we can maintain the status quo.
and i cant be sure neither of us will drift away.
wad makes u decide to keep someone by ur side?
it seems idiotic of mi to create more problems fer u now.
but it's now or never.
becos wad we are now makes mi stuck in btw and cant move on.
make a decision ba.
to let go and move on wif our own lives?
or do sth to make us closer?
i hate our current status.
we are nothing.
not even normal frens, u realise?
so strong, yet also veri vulnerable.
it hurts when u say u are unsure of ur feelings.
becos i am so sure of mine.
haha. i'm so difficult to handle.
i know i'm surprising u.
but i dunno how to tell u in person.
everything seems to be unfavourable fer us since long long time ago.
dun u tink so?
sth is lacking.
it jus so happen when we get closer,
sth will jus crop up.
it's so stupid.
we tok abt almost everything except this.
it's time we get realli honest, realli open.
i shall leave u some pride ba.
if u ever read this and dun wanna do anything.
dun ever mention u read tis before.
certainly not b4 u go ns or even after u went.
and most importantly,
i will stop contacting u le.
u know i always mean wad i say.
and tis shall be the last time i will do tis.
do ur maths ba.
i wait quite long alreadi.
in any case if u din read tis msg,
and so din do anything.
i will still stop contacting u too.
pretend dunno also cannot be a valid excuse tis time round too le.
let's see how fate play wif us ba.
hp cannot msg also can happen.
or maybe tis is a super long entry so u will miss out on tis part.
i realli tink anything like ur com suddenly cannot read my blog again can also happen.
jus see how ba...